Am i really a sick person?

alright so i got a dog about a month ago and i really love it and so about 2 weeks after i got it i stepped on its paw and it yelled. a week after that my dog was outside and so was i and i came in to get a drink and the dog came in also so i put him back out side and closed the door right when he was coming in again and it hit his tail and he yelled. So after that my father had a talk with me saying hurting a dog is devilish and that he wont let me see the dog again if he yells 1 more time. So just today i put my dog in my room and closed the door and i was waiting outside the door for a few seconds to scare the dog and i opened the door to hard and it hit his head and he yelled. So then he made me take his dog bowl, kennel, and bed out my room and put it in his room and then he called me a f**king devil and said to dog that he will make sure i wont hurt him again. worst part about it is that i graduated from the 6th grade today and everyone hates me in the house also he is making me close my door at night so the dog wont come in. i swear to god i wish i was dead right now :,(