What would you do in my situation?

First i want to say how sorry I am for your loss and I know your friend really needs you right now but if you can't do it then no your not a horrible person. I know how hard it is to sit with someone while the loose someone but my story is completely diffident I had to sit with my bestfriend while her grandmother pasted away I didn't think I could go through it but I prayed and prayed and God gave me the strength to do it. God bless you and I hope everything goes ok with you. You & your friend are in my prayers!!!!